I have been Henry's nanny since he was 15 months old. Friday he turned 3. I can't believe how much time has flown by. It seems like just yesterday I showed up at Autumns house and she was handing me this adorable blonde curly haired baby named Henry. I am amazed by him each and every day. He has found a place in my heart and will never leave. Every day he gives me a hug in the morning when I get to their house and tells me he loves me and I am his best friend. We come up with new nicknames for each other weekly and love to laugh at ourselves. He has truly been my source of constant joy. I love having a job that lets me spend all of my day with such a beautiful loving kind and funny little boy.
with all of that being said. Today I took Henry to Jack' school to try out preschool. (he will be attending there next year every day all day long.) I got him dressed this morning. put his favorite sweatshirt on him. Held his hand as we walked into Susan's house. Helped him get his shoes off and took him downstairs where the rest of the kids were waiting. Jack was so sweet taking Henry's hand and showing him all of his favorite toys. As I finished talking to Susan about calling me no matter when if Henry needed me. I turned to give him a hug goodbye and that adorable little boy's eyes filled with tears and it took all I had in me to not pick him up and take him home with me. Instead I held him and told him he was such a big boy and that I was so proud of him and he had Jack with him and no matter what I would be there to pick him up in just a few hours. He nodded and with his little chin quivering he bravely got up and went over with Jack to color. I made it as far as the car before bursting into tears. I know I am just the nanny. I get that it was just a trial day and that he would be back with me in just 3 short hours...but still I couldn't stop myself from feeling so lost. I totally get those mom's who sob the day they take their kids to kindergarden for the first day. It is such a pivital moment in their lives and yours. They just seem so grown up and it seems to have happened WAY too fast.
so now I sit at home alone. Just the dog and I until 11 and I couldn't feel more lost. I have already cleaned the house spotless. folded the laundry and picked out lunch for today. now what?
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