Jacob's song

so i went to Portland with Jake and Kassie a few months back and the Avett Brothers performed this song for the first time EVER. It was beautiful and i have NEVER heard a song that made me think of my brother more. After the song jake and my eyes locked and in that moment i knew he thought the same thing as me. this was everything he has ever wanted to say. so now this song will always make me think of my brother. i adore this song.

The Perfect Space

I wanna have friends that I can trust,
that love me for the man I’ve become not the man I was.
I wanna have friends that will let me be
all alone when being alone is all that I need.
I wanna fit in to the perfect space,
feel natural and safe in a volatile place.
And I wanna grow old without the pain,
give my body back to the earth and not complain.
Will you understand when I am too old of a man?
And will you forget when we have paid our debt
who did we borrow from?

Okay part two now clear the house.
The party’s over take the shouting and the people,
get out.
I have some business and a promise that I have to hold to.
I do not care what you assume or what the people told you.
Will you understand, when I am too old of a man?
Will you forget when we have paid our debts,
who did we borrow from, who did borrow from?

I wanna have pride like my mother has,
And not like the kind in the bible that turns you bad.
And I wanna have friends that I can trust,
that love me for the man I’ve become and not the man that I was.

greetings from norway

so i spent an hour talking to this adorable man online tonight because he couldnt sleep (it was 4 am his time) and he just made my day. he shared his new music with me and we just sat around and talked about life. i love talking with him. he is just so endearing and i cant wait for him to get home.

i love you Jaren!

September 29 is going to be a very expensive day for me.

*How I Met Your Mothers season 4 comes out.
(and i still need to buy season 3)

*I and Love and You FINALLY comes out! there is NO budging on that one. i WILL HAVE IT

*Away We Go is here. I have wanted to see this movie so long. i must own it.

*Monsters vs. Aliens is here. now i know that sounds dumb...but i really did love it and want to own it.

shit. this is a bad time to be unemployed.

reasons i am LOVING Community on NBC

So this show is on right after the Office on thursday nights and i look forward to it as much as i do the office. You HAVE to watch this trailer N. You would love this show because its funny and all the spanish parts i KNOW you would love. so watch it. LOVE it. because I love Joel McHale. I have been saying this for years. and i have an obsession with Abed. yeah

Okay N. this was the end of last weeks episode and i wont lie. i starting laughing aloud and thought of you. This is the type of Spanish I am capable of. but not set to an amazing beat.

so with all of this i hope that you watch this show and love it like i do. i believe it will draw us closer.

mal love this okay??

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i am a blog stealer. this is from rockstar diaries. thanks.

I WAS SHOCKED!

kinda sorta obsessed with this show right now. makes me laugh aloud so very much.

Lonestar State of Mind

okay so i watched this movie forever ago with someone. i cant remember who. but i loved it. thought it was SOOO funny. i've rented it with people since, but i dont think they get it. but this was always my favorite part of the movie. cracks me up EVERY time!

So i have been snooping around the interbin trying to find new things and i stumbled upon this lovely site. i've been here before but it sure makes me smile.

i'm not going to lie though N. This has to be my favorite part of the site.

Where is she going? *Serena* And who am I? That's one secret I'll never tell. You know you love me. XOXO Gossip Girl

Okay, so i have decided to continue on my GG obsession by posting more picture of the two cuties i love. These are some of my favorite moments in GG with the two of them.





















and although in GG i couldnt love Chuck and Blair anymore. I have to admit that the fact he is dating Vanessa in real life isnt that bad. i mean they are too freaking adorable together as well.





overall i just have to say i wish i was able to work with these folks. they look like such a tight knit group and i cant help but secretly wish i was there friend too.

Hulu

So i finished the two episodes of Glee that i missed and let me just say i LOVE LOVE LOVE them! I am not going to lie, the part with Josh Groban and the drunk mom was my favorite part. i laughed SO hard.

I also did some snooping around on Hulu and found something i am having mixed emotions about.

may i present


and like i said i dont know my thoughts on it. This is tv series based on the books Jake, Ben, and I are hooked on. I really do like some of the parts of the show. i think the problem i am having is that its based a bit loosely on the books. they have changed a bunch of things from the book and its bugging me. but if i look past that i am not ashamed to admit it is probably going to be my new guilty pleasure.

Richard Cypher, the main character of the books is really freaking adorable in the show. so good job there. and Kahlan is exactly how i imagined her to be. who they cast for Zedd is pissing me off but i will get over it. So i guess for now i will keep watching this show and see what i think. i only watched one episode so far so we will see.

N, you can watch it if you like and then perhaps you will decide if you are interested in the books or not. let me know okay?

p.s. no date tonight. thought you might want to know...

so here is the first episode of this show. tell me your thoughts. and dont judge me too much if you think its a joke and hate it. remember i am the odd duck who loves the unloveable. but also dont base your opinion on reading the books completely on the show. the books are MUCH MUCH better, you can just get a feel for how the story goes. the time era, the premise. whatnot. let me know N.

chuck and blair

okay so how can you not LOVE these two??? i have spent the last hour googling photo shoots from gossip girl. Now i am off to watch Season 2 again.

The Devil called...

So the devil called me last night. no joke. not some "spiritual attack" but an actual phone call. the number showed up on my caller id as 666-6666. i missed the phone call and got a pretty funny voicemail that could have been viewed as creepy to some as the voice was all warped and told me he heard i was having to problems lately and he could help...for the price of my soul. i laughed at this voicemail and went back to watching a movie...and hour later he called and i answered.

i will say we talked for twenty minutes and parted with him saying he'll call again in a week to try again. you see i turned him down for an "infinite amount of money" and told him i was happy where i was. he isnt a witty and i would have thought he should be. i made him laugh several times which i was proud of. im so funny i make the devil laugh!

it was an interesting experience indeed. I asked him if he was in fact like the devil from that show Reaper. i love that guy.


he told me no. he was black.

funny night.

My Love Affair with the Movies

so i will start this blog off by saying how tired and depressed i have been feeling these past two weeks. I am so sorry I havent been around. This has been a huge changing point in my life...and i have not the energy to get into it right now..but just know I am beginning to see light at the end of the tunnel. I will be back soon enough to myself.

but tonight I decided to watch a movie in my room. I chose Seven Pounds. I bought it today because Jessica told me i would love it and mom and dad said they hated it. MY KIND OF MOVIE. I swear I make it a goal to love the movies others hate. I really do. But anyways I sat there watching this movie...figuring out the plot probably earlier than I should have...but sat watching it. caught up in the emotions of it. in the sorrow of the story. and by then end I found myself on the edge of my seat wondering what the outcome would be. Lets just say I have not been that moved by a movie in quite some time. I LOVED it! a BEAUTIFUL movie that moves you. the very core of yourself. So if you havent seen it..i ORDER you to go buy it and watch it! I COMMAND IT!

But it got me thinking how much movies affect my mood. How I use movies to cope with life both in good times and in bad. They dont always affect me how one may think. I can be in the WORST mood the most DEPRESSED of situations and All i want to do is watch P.S. I Love You or MY Girl. You would think a sad movie wouldnt be the thing to watch..but there is a beauty in these stories...i find myself transported into a different place. I am drawn in and left breathless. With almost all movies. I really wish I could pin point some way to incorporate this passion of mine into a career.

but i sat on the computer afterwards looking up the soundtrack of Seven Pounds (which yours truly now owns along with several other songs that were in the film) but i stumbled upon a few classic soundtracks. I wish to own and watch each and every one of these films ASAP. These are the movies that make me feel the happiest. they take me back to my childhood of sitting at home with my mom watching TCM. I believe these movies are the reason i adore films so much. They are just few but they are my childhood. They impacted my life. they taught me that in every sitation there is a song to be song (oh how i wish that would happen in real life...) and no matter what you think is the end, that is just the point things begin to change for the good or bad. but never the way you expected them to. so whoever reads this and decides to make my life better by sending me these films. forever will i love you.

these are just a few i thought of tonight. the list could go on for days.

Meet Me In St. Louis
The King and I
South Pacific
State Fair
Hello Dolly
Guys and Dolls
On the Town
Seven Brides for Seven Brothers
Brigadoon
Show Boat
Calamity Jane
Bundle of Joy
Thoroughly Modern Millie
The Unsinkable Molly Brown
White Christmas
Tammy and the Bachelor
Annie Get your Gun
Its a Wonderful Life
Anchors Aweigh
In the Good Old Summertime
High Society
Swiss Family Robinson
A Star is Born

oh I could go on for days but these are what my heart wants.

Last Day of Work...

So today is my last day of work. I have shed tears. laughed. and gone crazy during this job and now it is coming to a close.

last night Autumn and the kids threw a dinner party for me. we had roast chicken, mashed potatoes with gravy and broccoli. yum yum. Autumn and I had a good talk afterwards over tea and I feel so blessed to have met this family.

the decorations for the party were all yellow (my favorite color) from the napkins, to the plates, to the cake flavor and frosting color (she dyed vanilla frosting yellow.) it was so adorable. the cake had yellow flowers on it and candles too. when it came time for cake they lit the candles and the kids then sang Happy Birthday to me. It was so adorable I couldnt stop laughing. They admitted they didnt know what else they were supposed to sing. A memory that will live on forever in my heart.

I have been getting everything finished up here at work today. logging out of websites that I had saved. loading my music onto a hard drive, and copying pictures. (dont worry N, i deleted those pictures from last years fair) I love these children. I love this family. i love this house. I will miss them all so very much!!

Now I dont know what to do. grandpa is not doing good at all. Its getting really serious...and jake's D date is coming up....oy vey. last night i got home and just sobbed on his shoulder for an hour. he was so sweet and just held me and let me get out everything i was carrying around. Ben and Piper showed up at the tale end, and let me tell you...they sure didnt look comfortable. haha.

so i came to work with puffy red eyes and a heavy heart. tonight it our big party..i'll try and post pictures in the next day or two. I wish you were here N.

Good luck Kassie with your job interview today!!!! I hope you get the job!!!!